So fucking annoyed. Someone has now opened my frozen yoghurt without asking. If I eat food from the fridge at home all I get is ‘did you finish the parmesan? Now we have no parmesan’ and yet it seems like it’s fair game for other people to eat whatever I’ve bought. I replace everything I finish. I do a whole food shop for my parents the first day I come home because there’s usually nothing in the fridge. I ask everyone what they want from the store. So I find it pretty tedious to have to buy my own food so that no one can complain that I’ve used something that was supposed to be for dinner when the stuff that I buy then becomes fair game for everyone else. So far I have spent £60 on food since I came home on Thursday because apparently I now pay for five people to eat.
I’m only writing this to push my face down as it’s creepy having it up top.
I have nothing else to say other than today has been generally useless, apart from writing a million emails because I am producing a show in 4 weeks’ time and practically nothing is organised for it. Today I made a decision on what kind of glasses to have at the bar (plastic).
In teaching today I was asked to do a procedure that I had no idea how to do and it was totally humiliating because I had to just stop and be like ‘I have no idea, at all’ until someone else was asked to take over and try. Clearly the two tutors didn’t believe me when I told them I had no clue what to do and for some reason had to watch me fail to do it rather than just explaining it first or having someone else do it from the start. So that was suuuuper awkward and I had to leave the room to make sure they didn’t see how upset I was.
In other news I got an essay back after 6 weeks and the only feedback on it was ‘Good essay on…[paraphrased title], good use of references and clear discussion’. I only got 8/10 on it so not helpful that there was no useful criticism, especially as I knew it wasn’t that great even though I’d spent a decent amount of time on it. I sent an email in reply to ask if the person who marked it had actually read it.
Then I got a text from work asking me to work a shift that I had said no to twice already because it was a late shift and I’m down to work from 5:30 am - 2pm the following day, but in the end i just gave in and agreed to it. I hate myself when that happens because I know I should keep saying no but I also know that they will keep texting and emailing me until I say yes, because I always do eventually. So I’m working 47 hours this week, on top of uni work and trying to produce this show.
One of the worst days in a long time. I bought a bottle of wine on the way home so at least things have improved slightly.
My housemate is moving out because she doesn’t want to live with us and would rather live with her boyfriend of three months (the first part is actually true and not me catastrophizing/being negative/whatever). Which is fine except now I am living with three boys who I didn’t know at all before we got the house at the start of the year because it was her who got us all together. I don’t know anyone else who lives near us so now I pretty much have no one to hang out with because I have literally nothing in common with any of them.
Aside from the fact that we now have to find someone else to live with us for the next year and a half until the lease runs out, it’s actually pretty crap when someone says they don’t want to live with you any more and you have no idea why.
I am convinced Peaches Geldof died from an eating disorder. I am anxious to see what the autopsy says.
if you want a laugh do a google image search for ‘computer frustration’ and just scroll
omg I just realised that felicity jones was ethel in the worst witch like 15 years ago
View from the Acropolis, Athens