Flower collection on my windowsill
mytuesdaymorning said: Hang in there!
Thank you! I just miss the outside world, but it’s also the single biggest motivator to make it out of here! xx
At the end of a long, desperately tedious weekend my tutor spontaneously decided to come and visit me and brought me these sweet peas from her garden, which made up for the rest of the weekend about a zillion fold
Going out for a whole two hours with my mum tomorrow morning and cannot wait. We’re only going to pick up some stuff from home and go to Boots but still v excited
Want to go home so badly. I miss my life. Going slowly mad. Feeling sick, cold and tired all of the time and it sucks.
The worst thing about weekends in a locked ward is the locked ward part.
Life on hold for four weeks to do inpatient. Feels like limbo. Everyone else is getting on with their lives at uni and I’m stuck here, not allowed to leave. At least the people are nice but I’d really really like to be home.
FFS. Get a call from the GP, get sent to hospital, get filled with fluids, get discharged. Two weeks later do it all again. What’s the point.
I want to go home. I want to quit uni. I want to quit my life. I’m tired and I just want to talk to my mum and not a therapist. I’m failing at everything from studying to eating to sleeping. I want to cry all of the time but I don’t want anyone to see me crying because it’s so embarrassing how badly I’m doing and then it’ll be really obvious that I’m a terrible student. I want to go home, like, now.